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you know it;s been too long to update your blog when tou forget the fucking password...

so... shit new with me... not alot. i dont know if ou picked this up but i;m drinlk. it;s stauray night, and i;n not sure if it';s quarter to two or quarter to 3 what with the daylifht saving malarkey. the reason ... ah fuck, hannah has just come in from work and got distracted so dont even know what the sentence was beginning with "the reason".

I lied. there is some shit that's new with me. probablybest to bullet point it

• i;ve moved out the hostel and into a lovely flat. me and hananh have moved into a lovely little flat, slight new yo9rk industiral esque, 10 mins away from theold hostle, we've moved in with 2 lovely kiwi girls, who are simply the nicest, kindest peopleyou ould hope to meet. WE bought a bed of trademe, i built it with myt leatherman ande felt veryt manyl, 

1. I hvent worked for the last 15 days. I got bought into the officve a cou0le weeks ago on wednesday sto say not to come in ti;l they had a new list for us to work on. I saw this coming and it didnt come as a suprise, though unemployment sucks. I feel unproductive and see my bank balace dwindling. the whole idea of NZ was NZ pays for NZ, whicbh up until now has been working out faboulsy. i;ve lived a quite affluent lifesyty;e, been to movies, bought shit htat i;dlike, though my money is running low and i need a jo9b pronto.

• ( i dont know if you;ve heard or lnow about the shit sandwich, where you put a negative inbetween two postives, but here is an example)/. \\\\\\ well,half. i;ve bought a road bike, a lovely blue little thing, well looked after, can;t decide on naming it between Epona, Lorretta or pegasus, so have settled on Loretta epona pegasus. I aslo have a closet ambition to ride north to south NZ, in either the coming march of this time next year, ie bookending the hot summer. I've startede boot camp in order to get fit, and think that i have under estimated the challenge that this cyloce ride will provide. Like top gear, overly ambitious but ridiculously good natured, and being a stubborn bastard it will happen, especalliy now that i';ve put it in ink admitting what i'm going to do. I bought Loretta 2 weeks ago though hvanet't riddne her, due to lack of funds to buy cyclung shoes (she's rocking cleats), the ;egal requirement to wear a helmet here, plus locks and lights. Once i get my shit sorted of think fucfk it and whack it on my UK credit card i'.l start training for it. shortest route is around 2200 km, though with diversions and who knows what could be a lot longer. though i cant think of a better way to see the country and get fit at the same time. I haven;t come half way acrss the world to worry, be contained by normal parameters, and what i cant and can do, there's no point in worrying about the things you can't control, and if you can control them, why are you worrying about them.

Despite my temp concern about no job, i'm doing alright for myself/. I'm really happy with where i'm living, the people i'm living with and also Hannah, who is magnificent, when i wasn't looking for anyone i came upon her and couldnt be happier. 

i'm going to go to bed as i'm fucked and rambkling. i still haven;t sent a spostcard from auckland yet back home which i apologise for, i will get on it. 

lots of love to you all, you're awesome x

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hello. It's been over a month since my last sidenote. I'm really sorry. Somehow in my head I make the excuse that as I'm still writing every day that it's ok, though if you're still checking this website that doesn't help you. It's been a very draining,, emotionally tiring few weeks. In no particular order here are some things that have happened in the last month:

• Hannah got her visa! They left it late and was worry filled though ended really well. We're getting on really, really well and chuffed to bits she's staying.
• My work has semi dried up and have been filled with uncertainty. Worked 22 hours last week. I'm temping and unsure yet as to what will happen to me. Having no job security has put a temporary pause on moving out/buying a car/buying a road bike.
• Had an insane 8 days with my friend Dave, previously referred to as Irish Dave. We hung out here for a couple, saw the Batman film at the Imax, then went on a road trip, covering the north of the north island and the Coromandel Penisula. This place is ridiculous, we saw storms, sunshine, giant sand dunes, forests with fuck off big trees, lighthouses, rolling country side, coast, Die Hard Bridge, plus one of the nicest beaches we both ever been to. I also fell more in love with Dave, one of the most brilliant persons ever.
• Football seasons are now over. Saturday 11 a side, we won 3 on the bounce and had two call offs. Futsal on the sunday evening we lost a couple and had a few big wins, had finals yday and lost to an incredible team 7-3, though they were bloody brilliant.

I've found I'm really struggling with time and tiredness recently, it doesn't help first not knowing about Hannah's visa and now about my job. I'm hoping things will settle down in a positive way and I start feeling like my life in Auckland is progressing, rather then being stuck in suspended animation (on a tight rope). I've got lots of plans to do new cool things though need to make them a priority.

There's loads more that I'm missing, though I'm bloody tired and off to bed. I've been terrible at keeping in touch and owe lots of people emails, not out of a sense of obligation though out of desire to stay in touch and display people's importance to me. 

love you all

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yo. Been a fucking busy week, work is getting hectic though enjoying it, had a lot better work week then last week. Erica (a girl from my hostel) has started here, the CDMA switchover is getting closer and momentum is building. It's really interesting to see a new brand building before your eyes. Un-work wise had a cracker of a week. Getting on really well with Hannah, she's applying for a visa extension as she's due to leave in 3 weeks, played tennis with Steve, first time in over a year, was amazing, been part of a 'Cooking circle', i cooked monday an absolute treat and others have stepped it up. Went and played pool wednesday, played table tennis yday with steve, had a lovely day at Waihike Island on Saturday and had a good day of football, only fucking won, plus won at Futsal on sunday night. Looking forward to this week, going on a road trip hopefully on wednesday with Irish Dave to north of the north island, want to get REALLY drunk on saturday as it's been a while, playing football tomorrow. I've been shit at keeping in touch, try and rectify that a bit, please don't think I no longer care or love you, not the case. Had a few beers this afternoon at work, going out for a meal tonight with Hannah and fooking looking forward to the weekend. lots of love xx

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Hey! It's friday, a couple of minutes before I clock off. It's been a long week, glad it's teh weekend. Work's been busy, watched a few movies, chilled out, the usual. Went to some hot springs on saturday as no football, had a right ball, ten of us went, we chilled, flume'd and took over the kids pool to create a whirlpool. Jacques, a canadian girl left us so we had a party saturday night. going to waiheke island tomorrow to play football and chilling on sunday, looking forward to it. I've been rubbish at keeping in touch so hope to send some emails out over the weekend, time's really short. Also hope to start playing tennis, going down to a club on monday to see how i get on. lots of love x

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Hey. What's becoming routine, updating this in my final 10mins of work. I'm still writing every day (though forgot this week and caught up 5 days on thursday) though it's pretty mundane standard life, though a decent happy life at the moment. Weekend was great, played football (lost 6-0) then went to that house party which was brilliant, mooched about sunday and cooked a curry for 16 people and watched Boy. Work monday to friday, had a really good week, plus a few beers in teh office both tuesday and thursday. There's a girl at my hostel called Hannah who I've started seeing, she's great, we went out wednesday and played shuffleboard and walked up Mt Eden. She's off to Oz in six weeks as been in NZ almost 2 years now so we're moving into a room at the hostel and see how it goes. Going to laser tag tonight, tomorrow going to a Thermal pool place as no football, plus they have hot water slides(!) and no doubt chill out sunday. I've also bought a tennis racquet which should be coming early next week and start playing. Also it's my mum's birthday today so hope to speak to her at somepoint, she's celebrating her yearly anniversary of her 21st. Happy Birthday Mum! love you all loads x

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hello, once again writing this cheekily from work. had a good week, played football on sat (lost 8/9 nil, lost count) then chilled out, got drunk friday night for Jonny's bday, sunday had winter christmas, a 3 course meal and dressed up. monday-friday was working, enjoyed it, been in a shop doing some repping as well as being on the phones, also cooked lots, went ice skating and went out with work yday, it was free bar and I was worse for wear after half 7. going to laser tag tonight, lasagne and pyjama party (fuck yeah!), football tomorrow and a house party then chilling out sunday ready for work again. Loving life, settling down into a pattern and having a good time. we've also started watching Game of Thrones! love x

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sorry i lied to you and didn't start updating my blog properly, what with work and other stuff, plus internet being annoyingly not free I haven't got round to it, having to remind myself to write my daily updates as it is. I'm cheekily writing this from work having worked my first monday-friday week for the first time in the year and i don't even have the desire to throw myself off a rather high building, i've had a good week and finished it with a few beers in the office. Rather uneventful as been going to bed early to get over saturday night, got offered another job though turned it down as happy here. Been feeding pretty damn well as hooked up with Adam and Simon and others and been cooking for a few people at a time, plus it seems there's a birthday every other day and a cake going round so been eating alot but it is winter in my defense. Chilling out tonight with a few beers, football tomorrow then sunday quite a few of us are going to the pub for 'mid winter christmas', have a 3 course roast on teh way which looking forward to immeasurably before back to work monday and i don't hate that prospect. I'm really starting to settle in and get in teh "i live here" state of mind, it's the longest i've been in one place for a while and i'm enjoying it. roll on next week! x